Thursday, 12 May 2016

Happy 6th birthday Fred!

Today Mr Freddie is 6 years old! Where has the time gone? My final baby and is such a brilliant little boy, even in the womb he had character and he is still brimming with smiles, humour, and fun.

I can't believe it's been six years since I gave birth after a very bumpy ambulance journey after a failed home birth. I wish I could have had him at home but it was still a great experience, especially with my husband and my friend Bobbie as my birth partner.

Happy birthday little man! 



Saturday, 30 April 2016

Grief

I read a post the other day that spoke about different types of grief. Recently my parents separated and moved into separate houses. At first I was grieving over how our family dynamic had changed, I tired to ignore it but in the end I had to confront it. 

Things are better now and my mum and I see each other frequently but the relationship with my dad is non existent. I see him for five minutes a week and I don't know who he is anymore. 

Things I show him are met with a vague acknowledgement, I ask him questions and he walks away, I ring his phone and he doesn't answer, he wears a ghastly Bluetooth tusk thing on his ear, there's no way he doesn't see my name flash up on his phone.

I feel like a little girl stood at the door with a cuddly toy in hand just watching as he walks away. What have done wrong? I have asked this question over and over. I watched him drift away from my mother with his many commitments and other interests, and now I think he is leaving me.

I'm grieving.

There is no one who sees it, I didn't see it until today.

I don't know him anymore, and he doesn't know me.


Monday, 4 April 2016

The LEGO® Movie™ 4D A New Adventure review

We were very honoured to be able to go and see the premier of Legoland Discovery Centre's new 4D film. After being flashed by the paparazzi and dodging a few celebs, the children got to meet the stars of the short film, Emmet and Wildstyle!!!!!!




The 12 minute film, exclusive to LEGOLAND®, reunites the characters from the original movie and brings together some of the original voices. It features an entirely new plot and mixed with amazing 4D effects, such as wind, water, smoke and special lighting effects, promises a uniquely imaginative interactive experience. 

The cinema is fab and we were so excited sitting and waiting with our popcorn and 3D glasses!



I don't want to give any spoilers away but we sat right at the front and it was fantastic!!!! If you're stuck for something to do over the school holidays I highly recommend a visit to see the film you won't be disappointed!!



Friday, 1 April 2016

Lamb love

Finally after a hectic term the children have broken up from school for two weeks. It's been a busy but wonderful Easter and now it's time for a bit of family R&R. My husband managed to arrange with his lovely friend who owns a farm for us to come and visit his lambs that have recently been born.

The rain was pouring down as we trotted through the misty hills, the green fields stretched around us as the sound of little lambs bleating on the wind made our faces smile wide.

Watching the lambs bounce around was beautiful, the ewes always had one eye on us except when munching on their feed. We went to see some of the smaller lambs that were under shelter until they were strong enough, it was such a privilege holding and looking after them.



The children had a great time being towed around in a trailer and also walking through the fields,with not one mention about the wet windy weather.



It was hard not to suppress the feeling that my husband and I would love to have a farm one day. It's a real pipe dream but it would be amazing one day to live somewhere that would allow us to have a few sheep and enjoy the beauty of our wonderful world.



It certainly was a great start to the holiday. 




Tuesday, 16 February 2016

Gradu-hate

I've got to be honest I am dreading finishing university in May.

I have no clue what I'm doing afterwards, the questioning has already begun.

"Well obviously you've had three years to figure out what you're doing after you graduate so what IS it you are going to do."

I've changed so much over these three years that my initial career inspiration to start my degree has faded completely. 

I've always thought of myself to be a bit like the Bridget Jones of journalism, bumbling around and sort of passing for a vague attempt of some sort of a career.

At the moment I'm feeling so much pressure to produce some sort of "ready to walk into" job after I graduate.

At this rate I'll be back at Sainsburys just so I can put my super clever eldest daughter through the private school she got into. 

Any career advice is welcome!

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

On the home straight

Well I'm not sure where January went but it has gone and I am back to uni for my final semester before graduation! 

I am a mixture of excited and nervous about the coming few months, but there is one thing I am certain about, that when I finally wear my cap and gown I will be very proud of myself!

I remember being 19 and a new mum. I was frequently told that I was throwing my life away, that I had ruined my future, that I was daft, immature, you name it, I was called it.

When I had my third daughter and before she was diagnosed deaf, I was blamed for her lack of speech by a nurse. I had too many children and I wasn't giving her enough attention apparently. It was my fault she couldn't say anything more than "mummy".

When I had my five little ones I was apparently stupid for staying in a job, I should have just stayed at home and not selfishly worked.

All these opinions from other people over the years caused damage but I can say that I rose from the ashes.

In May I will be handing in my dissertation, looking for a job that I want as my career, and giving every parent out there a high five because you know what? We're amazing!!!!!

I want to say to anyone who is thinking of going back to uni to do it!!!!! 

Having children is the start of a new way of life and you find your own path, my degree shows that you can have children young and still have a career.

I'm proud of me and I hope when my children look back when they're older they will be proud of me too.

Thursday, 17 December 2015

Christmas countdown

The last week of school is always a time of chaos in our home. The children are at full capacity for over excited, crazy behaviour and I'm at the other end, running on fumes.

I've enjoyed spending a bit of time this week with the hubs, I've been working flat out with my degree, including a week long placement in London, two deadlines, and a full week of producing content at uni. It has certainly took its toll so it's been nice to do some couply things like Christmas lunch with hub's museum colleagues, enjoying cleaning the house together (v.romantic) , and preparing for our friends to come round on Friday.

The children are very much ready for the school Christmas holidays, they are all getting up later everyday for school and are showing the signs of being tired like myself. They are also super excited about Christmas and their little minds are going at a million miles an hour, they are growing fast and they are fantastic company.

I've changed a few things this year by making time for stillness and reflection. It really has helped my stress levels and in turn made a huge difference to my health over the year.  

Obviously Christmas is the time for being busy but also (when possible) it is a time to take a step back, to be thankful for what we have, for who are in our lives, and for the joy that Christmas brings. 

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas xx






Tuesday, 8 December 2015

Ethical Christmas gift inspiration with Deki

Hello all, how is it nearly Christmas already?? I'm making an effort this year to avoid the big shops and get as many gifts as I can from small businesses, charities, and ethically minded companies.

If you are are thinking of trying to do Christmas a little differently this year and looking for a way to help people work their way out of poverty than this could be the idea for you.

Give the gift of hope as a stocking filler for your family, it's one less thing to wrap and 100% guaranteed to be used and appreciated.



Deki is a microfinance charity that provides loans and business training to people in the developing world enabling them to work their way out of poverty. 100 % of all money lent goes directly to the chosen entrepreneur and lenders are paid back over the next 12 months. Even a small initial investment can help a number of people to raise themselves out of poverty.

70% of Deki loans go to hardworking women who are struggling to support their families and want to increase their profits to provide for their children. These loans translate into an increased ability to access clean water, provide more nutritious and regular meals and pay for children to go to school.

Vashti Seth, CEO and Founder of Deki says; ‘As a mother of two young children, I strive to ensure the true spirit of Christmas is enjoyed by the whole family. My children love choosing who they want to invest their voucher with and are rewarded by following that person’s progress. As the loan is repaid, they reinvest it again; it’s a valuable lesson for us all.’

Over the last five years Deki supporters have lent over £600,000 in loans to entrepreneurs in Ghana, Nepal, Togo, South Africa, South Sudan, Malawi and Uganda, changing the lives of nearly 25,000 people. 



Head on over to www.deki.org.uk, vouchers can be purchased from £10 and will be available up until Christmas morning.

Give the gift of hope as a stocking filler for your family, it's one less thing to wrap and 100% guaranteed to be used and appreciated.