In a blink of an eye

So unfortunately non of the baby bunnies survived :( I got a call from hubs whilst I was at work that another had slipped away, I so wished I had been at home so had to do the rest of my shift with a horrid dread in my tummy.

Finally I got to my break and a text on my phone said it all....'non left'.

I know they're only animals and all that but I've not felt loss like that since my grandad passed in January.

I got home and saw the poor little ones and shed a few tears again, it was so sudden that we'd found out about them and now 4nights later they were all gone.

I felt and still feel numb, it's not been the best week and i think the children know I'm under strain as they have been a bit naughty especially my eldest. Obviously they have took the news to heart fortunately I did warn them that they make not make it so the news was easier to understand.

But all I've had all week from my eldest is 'I want, I want, I want' and it's really tiresome. I guess it's a phase she's going through and I'll get through it.

Such a mixture of emotions have raged through me this week

Guilt
Sadness
Anxiety
Stress
Love
Hope
Guilt
Worry
Guilt
Guilt
Guilt

I may have said guilt more than once, I just wish I could do things better, I hope things perk up towards the end of week x